Since it seems to be apparent that I’m not gonna be able to pull up and I’m going to plummet nosedive style to the ground anyway, I think what I’ve been trying to do is hit the ground so hard and so fast that maybe, just maybe, I’ll actually bounce up.
Years of cartoons and my life planning is still backed by Acme.
So while cleaning out my room and going through the thousands of random papers and items I possessed, I came across this notebook. I opened it to see only one page used. It was the notebook I used for Sunday school some years ago. I attended Sunday school as an adult cause my father wanted me to go through communion as he was on a real serious religious kick. I went through with it cause he doesn’t ask for much, we barely talk, but it seemed to mean a lot to him so I pretty much said whatever and went through with it. The experience was kinda weird, cause learning about religion from a mature mind state really comes down to logic. Religion to children contains quite a bit of “magic”…but once you no longer have that veil over your eyes, you stare at things a lot harder. But anyway, at some point during the classes we were asked to sit and write something. I believe there was no real aim to it, we were just supposed to sit in this chapel and let our mind flow on paper. I have no recollection of what was going on in my life at that time, but what was written down on that paper was definitely interesting:
The me I plan to be for the rest of my life
However, or where ever I decide to go, no regrets. But if it is a step in the right direction, I’ll know. If it is not, I’ll find this out as well. Hopefully I learn my lesson first time it is taught and reproduce the positive. The road I’m on will always be of my choosing. As long as I am true to myself I will listen to Him. It is and never was a question of if He talks to us or not. It is more about if we still have the ability…and better yet, if we still use that ability. That ability is the power to hear when He talks. It is a mistake to believe He talks to us with a voice, because He is not a man. He is able to talk to us in different signs throughout our life. We just need to listen.
*keeps paper just in case I need a good speech for rehab*